a walk to remember

lunch together

when i rested on your shoulder ;)

satnight tongkrongan

@ live in JOGJA

11 sosial 2 ;)

@ goelali resto

i am glad and proud to be with you, hans antonio

thanks a lot

last night and i am waiting

i'm waiting for saturdaaaaaaay. kadang gue mikir semua ini udah kayak nightmare. gue mau banguuuuuuuun dan menemukan gue sama dia baik baik aja. aaaah kenapa deh awal awalnya gue ikhlas tapi setelah semalem (i don't stop cried last night) gue ga relaaaaaaaaa. ga rela banget. dialog gue sama dia 2 jem an semalem seakan akan ngasi liat gue dengan real semua kejadian yang pernah gue alamin bareng dia. semalem gue mati rasa udah 3 hari gue ga nangis dan kemaren jujur gue engga kuat. gue sadar, gue sayang banget bahkan terlalu sayang sama dia. gila ini nih yang namanya bayar harga sakitnya ga ampun ampun. Semalem gue ngomongin banyak hal, banyaaaaaaak banget. gue sampe ga rela mau nutup telfon. i need him beside me on that time. tapi dia ga ada...

gue selama ini udah salah kaprah. apa yang udah kita jalanin, seburuk buruknya yang udah kita lewatin ternyata ga senegatif yang gue bayangin. semua ketutup sama semua kebaikan, kesenangan, dan kebersamaan gue sama dia. gue ga akan bisa lupa hans, ga akan bisa. semuanya terlalu mahal buat gue buang dan lupain...

desperate

ah gila baru aja gue ngepost tanggal 7 gue happy berat. sekarang gue harus cerita gue desperate abissss. i just broke up. gila sedih banget. males juga kalo harus cerita kenapa. awalnya semua karna emosi tapi kalo gue pikir ulang kayaknya gue emang udah harus udahan sama dia. semua udah selesai. gue udah mutusin untuk bisa stand alone. iya gue tau berat, beraaaaaaat banget. tapi gue yakin, gue bisa.

Tuhan terlalu sayang sama gue, ga mungkin gue ga bisa ngelewatin ini.

gue sedih, tapi jujur gue ikhlas.

nio, gue sayaaaaaang banget sama lo. jadi orang yang baik ya, jangan ngecewain gue. thanks a lot for all the things that you've gave to me. love, joy, happiness, caring, and also tears. semuanya berharga banget buat gue. ga akan bisa gue lupa, GA AKAN. gue terlalu sayang sama lo, Tuhan juga sayang sama lo, sama kita. Makasih ya buat semuanya. sabarnya kamu, perhatiannya kamu, becandaannya kamu, baiknya kamu, gokilnya kamu, kelucuan kamu, senyumnya kamu, juga buat marahnya kamu, egoisnya kamu, galaknya kamu, nyolotnya kamu, kedinginannya kamu, resenya kamu. SEMUAAAAANYA. dan yang paling penting, makasih bangeeeeeeet buat sayangnya kamu selama ini ke aku bahkan untuk kesakitan juga kekecewaan aku yang dari kamu. 4 taun, dari awal banget kita jadian, rasa sayangnya aku ga berkurang sedikitpun sampe detik ini.

i forgive you.

kita cuma butuh waktu untuk bisa introspeksi.

HAPPY!

oke it's more better every day

ya semuanya membaik. gue seneeeeeeng banget. dan hari ini 7 OKTOBER 2009 happy anniversary!

7 bulan lalu di parkiran puri indah mall jam 7 malem abis nonton seven pounds

dia: mau balikan ga?

gue : ngangguk

setelah 2 bulan dia nunggu, gue jawab juga. kadang gue mikir baru jadian itu lebih indah daripada baru balikan. baru balikan itu beban nya banyak. pasti gue bakal selalu dihantuin sama hal-hal yang dulu pernah nyakitin gue dan bahkan yang udah bikin gue putus. Tapi gue sadar maafin dia dan nerima dia lagi itu artinya berbarengan dengan gue harus ngelupain semua hal-hal buruk bahkan yang terburuk yang pernah terjadi antara gue sama dia. iya gue tau susah dan sampe hari ini gue masih belajar untuk itu.

gue sayang banget sama lo, nio ;)

sedih bangeeeeet

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

two days ago he said something to me...

aku bukannya bosen sama kamu. aku lagi di titik nol dimana aku bingung harus gimana biar bikin aku semangat lagi. jujur aku sayang kamu tapi biasa aja.

aku bukannya ga mau barengan kamu tapi ini emang harus, aku jadi sering emosi jadinya. ini bukan berarti kita pisah. kita saling jaga jarak dulu. aku ga ada maksud apa-apa. aku sayang kamu

dan hari ini gue belom merasakan perubahan apapun.

gila gue gatau harus sampe kapan -_-